it's as if im all but in a dream. refusing and refusing to awake. someone. bring me back to earth please.


far from being in the situation that i need to study. all i wana do is to live life d way i want. no inclination to study or to touch my books. i need to find the motivation. still. there must be more to life. im sure.


ushering for friday's event was kinda kuku. turns out to be like an mtv asia awards in malay. anugerah or smth.hahs. karn understand a word they were talking and singing such that i got really bored after d ushering job was done and d show started. and d hall was so cold that my nails turned purple, my lips bled and i shivered. in d end, me and another usher just kept sneaking out of d hall to keep warmth and talk to the ushers outside. kuku bunch of ppl. had to plead d guy just for a bottle of water. oh. but taufik was really quite good looking, some person tried to shut us up cus they were interviewing him backstage. hahs. and some of d dances were really good too.


after d event vic,chunwei,rand and i went airport for supper. they had to wait so long cus d event ended so late and d ppl refused to leave d hall, chasing after their idols and taking photos. and cus i was smart, we went from t1 to t2 and back to t1 again. hahs. but i found out that popeye has yummy buttermilk bread :) and i was so sleepy i fell into such a nice deep sleep on d way home, feeling protected and safe. :)


sat was a failed attempt to get myself motivated to study. kennethloh was damn sleepy, making me feel so sleepy as well. in d end we just spent most of our time going around toyrus trying to find a nice prezie for our dear friend and watching him play time crisis at d arcade.


ichiban boshi on sunday. :) yayness. but den they had too many trainees on d same day such that we waited extra long for our sushis. but ichiban is always nice :) and daddy was really eager to chop as many chops on d coupon thingie so that we ate extra alot that day. haas.


i want to do so so much. like just pack my bag and go japan for example. i wish i can break free from all d restraints. my responsibilities. of going to school. of studying. ive lost all motivation to study. i duno why. and i duno how. it's been some time. have mugged too hard too long.

thankew nessa and ivan for being such sweeties today. and were there when i was down.thank you.

i want everyday to be a weekend. please.


looking forward to d long good friday's weekend next wk and manday's birthday bash! :)

happy belated birthday ZHUZHU!! :) i know u love us very much (frm ur blog) and we love u too! *huggs
happy HAPPY birthday to dear PINKIE too! love ya girl. :)


-thank you.for always being there.for making me feel loved and cared.

i want you in my arms ;
- 10:39 PM

am not as strong as i thought i was after all.


sometimes, i overestimate myself.

i want you in my arms ;
- 12:59 AM

hahs. have to update before my blog turns into an ancient relic.


yayness. it's d march holidays. at last.


weekend was spent at the smu and nus open houses. hahs. like old friends gathering like that. so many year2s went for the open houses kept seeing primary,secondary and jc friends.hmms. saw choir seniors too :)


smu open house with rong,weiwei and mel was quite fun. d students were really friendly and articulate though we almost fell asleep in the first talk. nus open house was hmms..i don't know how to say. i feel as if i was in another teejay except that it was much much much bigger. and yt was saying walking in d campus itself made her really dizzy cus of the up and down winding roads. d talk was even worse. we left halfway through the second one. the students kept asking us to write our names down for d clubs and societies such that we became intimidated. none of them at smu did that. in d end i had to write my no. down once cus this guy kept going on and on and on.


and the first day of holiday was spent at ntu for economics seminar. early in the morning was really kuku. daddy fetched me there cus i overslept. ntu is so damn far. and d campus was so huge that we can't find the theatre that i was supposed to go even after going rounds around the campus. d tutors told us to be there at 830 and it was already 850. hahs. finally we saw two acjc guys on this remote road that has no way in cus the part was under huge contruction. in desperation i asked them if they are going for the econs seminar and they ended up taking my dad's car. cus they were also lost but they had the ntu's map with them. im just such a nice girl. hehs.and the guys say their tutors told them it's 845.haas.so we found d place at last. and yiming was nice enough to wait for me at the carpark :)


it starts at 900. and we were right on time :) making friends like this is kinda of funny. and i saw them again at lunchtime though we went to a cafe far away from the theatre to find nicer foods. oh. haha. ntu has nice food :) the first part of seminar was quite interesting, but in the 2nd part, we became so restless, despite having buffet food after every hour. so ivan and i just kept snacking on sweets and his sour lemon thingie that made my lips all white. hahs.


and i bought a new camera from the IT fair. yayness.coolpix s1.manday saw it in the papers and we thought it was a good buy. manday and rand got the same one too :) and mab also went to get it after she saw my cam after d handmaid's screening. and rj too. hahas. it's just so pretty.


and my cousie's wedding rehearsal was kinda kuku. i rushed down after d handmaid's screening. d chijmes hall was all grand and pretty. now i feel that being a bridesmaid isn't all so fun anymore. the wedding planners were kinda strict.and it's reallly difficult to march formally, with grace and dainty-ness.and keeping d same distance with the persons in front, walking at the correct timing with d music, plus, all the time smiling. i really want my cousie's wedding to turn out really well. plus he's one of my closest cousie.oh. and my bridesmaid dress is really not that pretty. one stranger bride was at d shop when i went for my try and i was standing at the studio with her. her wedding gown was all so grand and glam that at d time i thought i really looked like her maid. no wonder they made d dress like that. hahs. but i know that bridemaids are not to outshine the brides anws. plus. it's not my wedding. d dress is really a straight cut dress with no shape such that at d tummy there d whole dress bloats up. and d shop ppl had to blame it on my body shape. they say cus my waist is small so it turns out like that. i was like huh. pls.think d sewing skill isn't very good seeing i had to go for 3 tries just to get my body measurements right.still, am really excited about d wedding :)


my room is induced with the sweet scent of roses.
.thank you. :)

i want you in my arms ;
- 10:28 PM