the political science presentation is giving a BIG FAT headache. i hate politics lahhs. ive been like failing my politics quizes. and i karn afford to fail anymore. but im seriously doubting my aptitude and my love for the arts.

i need a break and so here i am.
actually been taking too many breaks..reading blogs and watching dance videos.

so many things waiting to be done.
shittes.

im supposed to write critiques on two essays that evaluate some intelligent people's argument on topics such as 'famine, morality and affluence' and i have no idea wths one girl is writing about. her essay is totally incoherent. im sorry to say.but it really makes things alot more difficult. ohwells. at least the other essay is quite good.

and there creative presentation in d same wk. plus stats quiz plus stats tutorials plusplusplus. ohmanns. it's neva gona end.

i hate the way class participation works in smu.

im very tempted to give up. and no matter how many times i remind myself to just try my best.it's never enough. and ive broke down too many times this week already.

this is too draining.

i want you in my arms ;
- 2:28 AM

it's my birthday!

imma gona spending it doing projects. arghs. so many things due next week. ohmannsohmanns.

he wished me at 12.19 am. somehow his msg upsets me.

i think we've become just friends and strictly at that. maybe it's better that way.ohwells.

i want you in my arms ;
- 1:02 AM

i think im infinitely stressed.
another of my friend is withdrawing from smu.
damn sadds.

there's smth wrong with us. somehow i said smth wrong. i think.
this is d first week in very very long..hmms. ever since we knew each other.. that we never go out together.
and our msgs have since become shorter and shorter and shorter.

i duno wads wrong.
everything is going wrong.

i want you in my arms ;
- 9:51 AM

im drowning in projects, quizzes, assignments, tutorials and readings.

school is really depressing.

i want you in my arms ;
- 9:19 AM

havent blogged for so long such that i duno where to start.

daddy jus went to japan this morning. although it's for work. he's a lucky pig. cus i wana go japan too. school is just sad.
i ordered macs breakfast delivery for the first time. binge-ing mood.

eating macs breakfast reminds of how kaiwei, serkheng and i would go for suppers. how kw and i would end up at ecp's macs breakfast every so often and after which we'll walk at ecp just talking and relaxing.

i miss my friends.badly.
school is really really very bad. really very depressing.

my life basically revolves around projects. every free slot i have is taken up by projects and more projects. and then there's assignments, tutorials, quizzes, endless, endless of them. i feel drained. very drained. im in school for project even on saturday and sunday. that sucks. class partcipation sucks. it jus makes ppl very very fake, mks d seminars very disruptive, mks ppl overly-stressed. and i need sleep.

d branding is over-rated. overly -hyped. and the place is actually not great AT ALL. besides d fact that we pay lotsa school fees in exchange for escalators, lifts, aircons and security guards, it's a depressing place lahs. and a good fren of mine just withdrew this week. and more friends thinking of quiting. and im jus hanging hanging onto dear life.

one week seems to last forever. and d weekends never seems to come early.

d only thing that makes me lasts thru the week is d thought of meeting him in d weekends and his msgs everyday. somehow, we've d silent promise that we'll meet each other every week. no matter how we're drowning in quizzes and projects. even if it means meeting at 1150pm after project and going home at uncivilised hrs. even if it's just spending time talking to each other.

sometimes, i wish i can just wrap myself in his arms and the next schoolday would never come.

on a happier note. i met dearie elks by chance after sch on friday! :) it was really loveleigh hanging out with the babe. and funny as usual :) after which sk and i went to get rach's prezie after being ps-ed by kw. and we got her a really really loveleigh laptop bag! after which we jus kept chatting abt random stuffs. wanted to get cakes at cartel and instead saw elks, pamteo,yokey,jean and hsinching at cartel. crazy girls screaming my name! :) i miss d 35ers lahs.

i dunwana go school lahs.

i want you in my arms ;
- 5:22 PM