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!Thursday, June 29, 2006

YAYNESS. the jcts are over!! am a free person. for now.

i really karn bear to think about the results. yucks.

my mind seems to be thinking about alot of things these days. anything but what i should be thinking about on my jcts.
i suddenly felt very blessed. hahas. stupid but yahs.
i really really love the people around me. my family, friends and dearest baby. thankew for everything. :)

argentina is playing germany tomorrow!and im so rooting for germany. hahas. mab, d reason i dunwan argentina to play with germany is not d same as u leis. argentina keeps falling down at incredible rates and some falls are so unreal dat that i want to scream at d referee's unfairness. their match with mexico was so full of falling downs dat i was almost cringing by 430am and they had to go into extra time.hahs.

it's post exams syndrome coming up.
first is a whole day's of sleep for tomorrow cus my tummy is so damn damn painful i feel like wrenching it out plus im really tired from d lack of sleep so i just wana stay home and sleep like a pig..sorry vic.. ichiban another day okes. and mango sales! really sorry ken too.not in outing mood tmr. soon okesokes :)
and sat is sentosa day with rand!
sun is family outing day+dance at ymca+ nessa's church (if they all dun clash cus ive promised girl for a long time.im really very sorry.)
mon is youth day holiday! and it's cheesecake day with rueben+holland v. with 35-ers maybemaybe?
and next sat is birthday celebrations with rong, krys, pr and ngxin!yays!
and date with dear yueting not yet fixed.
and elks, where's my tcc date hurhurhurs?
and ivan too! ur 1 plus am call to say to go tcc and mug? hahs. i wana go there and indulge!
i love talking to shurong and yueting.
i love my friends. :)

i want you in my arms ;
- 10:01 AM

!Friday, June 23, 2006

my gosh. im damn slack now since my most hated phys geog is over. not like i wasn't slack enough in d first place.

hahs. phys geog was digusting. i didn't do one whole essay. except for abt 2 sentences. yucks.and d rest was just a load of crap. but thanks to the wonderful 35 i didn't feel sad after d paper. everyone was just laughing away at manday's ' on a recent trip to m'sia...' hahs.girl, u're so cute lahs! :)

i hafen touched a teeny wee bit of lit and geog. really really. and just a wee bit of econs touched. so screwed lahhs. totally wasted my time on hardy's 1912-1913 poems when he came out some nature thingie. eews. hahas. quoting navleeen, who'll have thought it's so repetitive.

anws. rantings aside, world cup fever is here :) and im with germany! yayness.daddy came back from US and realise that i'll cable thingie can receive m'sia channels and d scv is working for duno what reasons. so while at first i thought i wouldn't be able to watch d world cup until some semi-finals now all tee-vees can play it very clearly and 2 channels to choose from too! :) im a happy girl.hehs.

daddy's brought SO much chocs from us dat i think it'll last a lifetime.hahs. and levi's is so freaking cheap there. im so envious. except dat mine is children's size cus adults' are freaking huge sizes but i could hardly squeeze into it.

i karn wait for jcts to be over. hang on ppl. it'll be over soon. :)

i want you in my arms ;
- 5:58 AM

!Friday, June 16, 2006

EIGHTEEN and MUGGING doesn't go together. see?

okes. am not exactly eighteen but really. it's not fair to expect eighteen year olds who should be having living their life, celebrating friends' s pretty 18, letting their hair down and basically just have fun to spend their HOLIDAYS studying.

quoting tingxi. ' i don't know where my past weeks went nor my interest in a cambridge cert.' damnit.

oh. oh oh. ive officially collected enough receipts for my tcc card. yayness :) which shows how much ive been tcc-ing. :) awwss. sinful sinful dark devotion.

and happy happy 18th to dear elks! :)
and sweet eighteen to krys :)
and a big fat happy 18th wish to dajie ngxin!
and a very belated one to cusie vic. hehs.

i want you in my arms ;
- 11:09 PM

!Friday, June 09, 2006

d tears won't stop flowing.

d people at orchard must have thought i was mad.
d people on the trains stared like i was an idiot.

they just won't stop.

kenneth tried his best to make me laugh. showing me supposedly funny youtube videos.and videos of his friends. and ended up laughing harder himself.
' why you still crying? not funny mehs?dun cry ler lahs' he stared.
and for d first time he was so caring, asking me to msg him when i've reached home.

--*pam. dance with me. says:
not like u to be so caring ahs
ken - my ambition. world cup diarrhoea says:
cos God loves me, and i love you

thankew friend.

but d hole in my heart grew bigger, emptier.

and they still won't stop.

bestie yt wanted to give me a virtual big phone hug.

yet they continued flowing.

at home the tears lost their place and they just rolled and rolled. uncontrollably. sista was so shocked as i've not cried like that for the longest time. she brought d whole box of tissues.the tissues were great.

yet the tears continue falling.

ivan was plain nice and sweet. offering to call me without knowing he reason why i was sad even.
he nudged me on msn and when i told him i was sad, he offered to be there. thankew.

--*pam. dance with me. says:
i need a hug. badly.
[??] °·Lebeau·° . . . . A lil penchant! . . Brink of Deliverance. says:
hais
[??] °·Lebeau·° . . . . A lil penchant! . . Brink of Deliverance. says:
meet me lor

but i cried even more.

thank you. so much. for trying to make me smile.

i never thought it was so difficult.
believe me. please. for once.

my wish upon d stars was never meant to be.

i want you in my arms ;
- 11:25 PM

!Wednesday, June 07, 2006

randomness. got this from issac who got from mab who got it from raf. hahs :)

About the boys; Turned ON, OFF or DM (Doesn't matter):

Is taller than you: ON
Is shorter than you: OFF
Wears braces: DM
Dresses Preppy: DM
Dresses Ghetto: OFF
Dresses Gothic: OFF
Has blue eyes: ON/DM
Has green eyes: OFF
Has hazel eyes: ON
Brown eyes: ON
Drinks alcohol: DM
Wears glasses: DM
Smokes: VERY OFF
Plays sports: ON
Smiles a lot: ON
Calls you just to say Hi: ON
Compliments you: ON
Likes to talk: DM
Shy and quiet: OFF/DM
Good dancer: VERY ON
Wears jewellery: DM/OFF (depends what jewellery. hahs)
Smiles when you walk in the room: ON
Has brown hair: DM
Has Black hair: ON
Has blonde hair: DM
Has red hair: DM
Makeup: DM/OFF (depends on extent)
Can make you laugh at any given moment: VERY ON
Loyal: ON
Laid back: ON/DM
Plays guitar: ON
Plays piano: VERY ON
Plays drums: DM
Sing: VERY ON
He's buff (muscles): DM
Doesn't eat meat: OFF (abit diff. to find food ahs)
Has a tattoo: DM
Has a lip ring: OFF
Has tongue ring:OFF
Dislike parties: OFF
Love parties: DM
Clubbers: DM
Virgin: ON
Non virgin: OFF
Has car: ON
No car: DM
Stays home: OFF/DM
Stays out: DM
Uses hankerchief : DM
No leg hair: OFF/DM

i want you in my arms ;
- 7:19 AM

!Saturday, June 03, 2006

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/keystoyourheartquiz/">What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

got this quiz from raf's blog. quite true i guess. (so be secure please.)

been really long since i last blogged.

came back from the leo forum in m'sia. where we were bisically being treated like vips by the people in the hotel. breakfast and lunches were nice nice buffets and both dinners were 10-course banquets. tell me i dun weigh like an elephant now.

retro night was pretty fun. except that the tutor didn't tell us it was 'retro' night. so while 800+ youngsters went into the ballroom looking all glam and dressed for the theme, the group of us was in our very own 'be ourselves' theme.

banquet night was even better. mostly due to the fact that tjc leo club won the top club of the year in singapore. yayness :) we were screaming like anything. and everyone looked so dressy and glam and pretty that night :) sweets.

counting the kuantan trip, ive been to m'sia twice in a month. m'sia. and issac is in prague. and ym and yokey and zhu in italy. awws man. i think they're having a hellot of fun.

am currently addicted to tcc's dark devotion. (thankew for treating me like a princess :) ) after treating to dearie elks to it for her birthday i keep wanting more more MORE of it. awws. it's damn sinful. and eating it at midnight makes it even more so. oh. oh. OH. and am abt 10 bucks away from getting my tcc card. receipts anyone? hehs.

and i forgot to blog about our outing to surf and turf with yokey, zhu, xt, mab, elks, manday, jean and ivan. it was so much fun. all the talking. and chatting. and the continuation of it at tcc. we should do this more often :)

okes. shall be going to thailand soon. and really looking forward to the outings with sec sch mates. ichigo bliss treat from mugging partner kenneth loh. dinner treat from cousie ken. nydc treat from rueben. shopping with dear yt and manday. chatting endlessly with bestie lh. spending more time with dear. and food feasting with my family. now tell me again that this holiday is s'pposed to be spent studying. HAHS.

victoria. claim ur prezieS from us SOON. before i decide to save them for myself.hehs.
yijun. girl. ur prezie is collecting dust in my house. really. hahs.

okes. am seriously procastinating. i need to start studying.someone motivate me to study. please? and am procastinating to upload all d phtots too. cus photobucket takes a million years to get it done. hehs. sorry sorry. i'll do it soon. or can ask me to send when u all see me on msn kes. i know ive quite a few of xt,mab and nessa's sunrising pics cus only my cam seem to be working at dat time :) hehs. so claim from me :)

got this from zhu's blog who got it from raf's blog. somehow it tugged myheartstrings. alot.

To every girl that dresses cute not skanky.
To every girl who wants to be called beautiful not hot.
To every girl that will spend her whole day looking for the perfect present for you.
To every girl who gets her heart broken because he chose that bitch instead.
To every girl that would die to have a decent boyfriend.
To every girl who would just like once to be treated like a princess.
To every girl that cries at night because of another heartbreak.
To every girl that won't get down on her knees and open her mouth just to get a boyfriend.
To every girl that just wants to hold hands.
To every girl that kisses him with meaning.
To every girl who just wishes he cared more.
To every girl who would just once want a guy to give their jacket up when they are cold.To every girl who just wants him to call.
To every girl who lies awake at night thinking about him.
To every girl that just wants to cuddle.
To every girl that just wants to sleep with him without having sex.
To every girl that is scared to put her heart out there again because she has been hurt too many times or so badly.
To every girl who shows how much she cares and gets nothing back.
To every girl that thought maybe this one could be the one.
To every girl that believes in her dreams.
To every girl that would do anything so she could achieve those dreams.
To every girl that laughs at stupid stuff when she actually doesn't think it is funny.
To every girl who is just looking for that one and only and is having a rough time along the way.
To every girl that has been cheated on because she is not a slut who gives it up to any guy.
To every girl that doesnt want a guy who just plays with her emotions but actually cares about how she feels.
To every girl who wants words backed up with actions.
To every girl that fell for all the lies only to find themselves alone in the end.
To every girl that gave her heart away only to have it shoved back in her face.

i am just like you.

i just want to love (you).

dear. let me understand you. please?

i want you in my arms ;
- 7:59 AM