!Wednesday, September 06, 2006
i hope you'll read this.even if you hate me. just like i'll still read ur journal everyday.
6 months 10 days.
i had always been a perfectionist. my close friends have always said that of me. i aim for too much, want too much. sometimes. and if i had no confidence of doing something well, i won't do it.
im sorry i didn't have time for the relationship. or put in as much commitment as i would like to. i tried to free up whatever time i had to spend with you, i tried to show you how much i cared through little means now and then, i thought having you on my mind was enough. apparently, it isn't. i didn't want to be selfish. i could choose to be selfish and concentrate on my studies and settle anything after that but the reason i didn't is because there's a possibility of you finding someone better during this time. and i dunwan to be an obstacle. don't say you won't have a girlfriend after me, cos, you'll never know about the future. maybe even before i finish my exams, you'd found a new girlfriend? and then, i 'll stick out my tongue, laugh at you and say " see i told you so."
i hope you won't hate me as much as time passes. if i karn be The Ex-girlfriend nor The Friend, i hope i could at least be an accquintance, and that you would still talk to me.
i desire a happier ending. please?
look on d brighter side. didn't you say i always don't understand you? you need someone who could understand you better. and im sure you'll find the person soon enough. love isn't enough in reality. isn't about how rich u are or nots. i loved you alot. but you and i both know, there need to be a connection and we have so very different thinkings.
you claimed that i broke your heart, but you'll probably get over me faster than i do, the first relationship is almost never forgettable, while the fifth probaby isn't. i believe. you'll always have that special place in my heart.
still, i hope i can do something to make up for everything.
and i want you to know, that deep down inside, i really realy treasured everything you've done for me and everything you've given me. memories and all.
if there's anything i can do to make things better, anything at all, please tell me.
i karn promise i'll be able to do it, but'll try my best.
thank you. for the beautiful dance.
brief, but beautiful.
i want you in my arms ;
- 3:33 AM
