!Sunday, September 17, 2006
i love my buds and my friends so so much! the 35ers. esp. nessa and manday never fail to crack me up. yt never fails to amuse and confuse me with her relentless 'how?' and elks and jean and krys and san are just fantastic. ivan gives big hugs without questioning me. uncle ken asked me to binge with him for stress relieve.i love them.really really.
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that day, in a culmination of everything, i broke down and my parents were super shocked cus i always seem so composed. hahas. daddy had me on his lap and rocked me like a baby and told me with a kiss that "no matter what, mummy and daddy love you" and i wish they would know that i love them alotalot too.
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so ive come out of my depressed little self. cus i found so much more to life. and everything's gona be better. cus there's gona be binging with nessa and manday. (other ppl too?) and shopping with besties. and elks have found d place to learn our dances. she asking me to learn hiphop. and i shall make her learn new jazz. and i wana wana learn salsa! and then there will be travelling with the 35-ers. and yt to rome? (girl, we really need our rich old men?) hahs. and there's gona be crusing with my bestest buds. mans. i karn wait for d frigging a's to be over!
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you know, ive this weird urge to hug someone whenever someone holds d umbrella for me. hahs. act. it's not that weird cus yt feels the same way! that day it was raining heavily and ivan was reciting some lines from d pc exam "okes.me and pamela are lovers under the arch-bridge so you must be Time and pretend to cough!" when all he did was cover my face with the umbrella.i love my friend! and that time when zhu was sharing umbrella with me at bedok, i wanted so much to give her a big warm hug, but i think she wld have just dropped the umbrella in shock. and when i was in sec2, some random senior offered to shelter me with his umbrella and i wanted to hug him and say "thankew!" but i think he'll think me mad. hahs. but i just wana say that i suddenly feel so loved and that i do appreciate the people around me alot. *bows.
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listening to PCD's sway and i really karn wait to open myself and express myself thru DANCE. hahs. iyas. freak d damn exams.
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im sorry for my outburst. it just seemed so foolish now. and when i said "you should repect her and her body" he actually said "haha.sorry. she's my kind" and i just felt disgusted. a girl that does not respect her body garners no respect. i mean how many days have it been. but it's not my business now. im just glad im out of it all. and ken was frigging funny when he saw d photo he went "she pretty meh?!" hahs. now you're asking me.i mean no offence to the girl cus she did nth wrong to me. i'll just be a bystander now and hope things work for them. lalalas~
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thankew my friends. nessa..d long talk was really good. maybe next time u can shop for leggings with me too! im feeling so much better now. like my heart that has been held down for so long that i feel suffocated has been finally released! i karn wait to go dance. :) loves. shits. im been frigging slack ever since duno when. tell me why do i think the prelims are over? okes. it's football time!
i want you in my arms ;
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