!Saturday, September 16, 2006
that day, in my excitement to show him something, i pulled his wrist just like i would to any other friend.i think he mistood me and tried to hold my hand.i dropped his wrist. feeling guilty. even for such a little action like this. for being too close to someone too soon.
FREAK CAN. i wonder what i am feeling guilty for being close to my guy friends for or even being upset and guilty for having "broken his heart". u noe wad. U SUCK. yes YOU. okes ppl who know me would know im not d kind who swear around. but you know what. YOU ARE A FRIGGING JERK. DUN GO AROUND SHOWING HOW PITIFUL YOU ARE, saying a heart that i broke cannot be mend again when d next day you go and get urself attached. and if dat frigging photo is meant to make me jealous. you know what. it just made me frigging pissed. pissed at myself for being so silly so stupid at having been upset FOR NOTHING. and u frigging dare to add there that ' TO THINK I JUST BROKE UP WITH PAM' like HELLO. U DID NOT BREAK UP WITH ME. I CHOSE TO LEAVE U! IT CHILDISH CAN. and makes it seem very on pupose.idiot.now you please go to hell. and i want to have nothing. NOTHING to do with you. I HAVE NEVER HATED SOMEONE SO MUCH in my life. U FRIGGING ASS IN THE HEAD. GET OUT OF MY LIFE. i never want to see u again. and i seriously wish d girl GOOD LUCK.and u better treat the girl with more RESPECT. (you frigging know what i mean).and i dun care if u get frigging angry if you ever read this. I HATE YOU.
okes. im not going to frigging break down and be upset anymore. i should now go and congratulate myself for having release myself from you. i frigging dunwana have anything to do with you anymore.to think im upset even admidst all d stress of prelims. damnit. why am i so friggin ignorant?
IF YOU ARE TRYING TO FULFIL THE 'you will regret it!' thing for me breaking up with you or trying to get back at me. you know what. im gona friggin make you regret it even more.
okes. pam is gona be herself again. no more this bloddy guy taking up her life. FREAK YOU.
i want you in my arms ;
- 3:11 AM
